I truly hope that there is no afterlife. Because if so, they are 4 possibility who are equally horrible.

1) heaven
You gonna live for eternity on cloud with all the other people dead before you. All the baptised baby who cry because they don’t even know how to talk, all the 200 years old people who died alone in a little room in a crappy hospital while calling for their family. And you cant even go mad or crazy because its heaven so you gonna pass through eternity with a mind fully functional forever who let you see the horror of the situation but force you to be happy and sane.

2) Hell
same thing that heaven but with pain, madness and frustration

3) Reincarnation
 Except that you dont keep your memory. So its basically death.But with sometime a resurgence of old memory, like if you’r old you is still trapped somewhere in your mind but can’t go out and become crazy little by little and scream all day so you go see a hypnotist to bring back your memory and you endup killing a familly and their dog and masturbating in their guts.

4)Quantic résurrection
 It’s a theorie who said that if we resume our life the most simple possible way. It’s only atom who move and who are more or less exited. And that mean that with enough time it’s possible to see atom repeat the same patern who gonna lead to the exact same event be played in the exact same order and who gonna create me again. But that mean that i’m gonna be stuck on a perpetual loop from my birth to my death and it could be my first loop or my one thousand and i cant know.

I think that i find the calm of the non existence and void more atractive.